HATE WHO?

                 I walked through the jungle to find the secrecy. A mystery in the past that I couldn’t see. I remember nothing but how to live. Those unrevealed questions, no one had an answer to give. I keep walking until I find, not a distant a locked door on a tree behind. It was covered with twigs and some fruit of figs. Try to unlocked it but I can’t, useless there’s not a key I with. Curiosity rise on me, on what’s inside I want to see. I feel that it was what I’m finding, now and then. The mystery of my past, keep hunting me more often. I grab a stone, give full strength on it and thrown. But the door keep unlocked, nothing changed it sucks! Frustrated, I find myself crying, don’t know why but utter words saying “I hate you!”. Finally the door opened, odd as it may seem. I’m shocked apparently when I saw a shadow of a human figure, slowly going nearer. Until I had a full view, he’s a HE. I wonder why he is so familiar with me. Suddenly, head-hurt attacks, scenes in the past was flashing back.

                Jake asks me a dinner date today. He said he has something important to say. I was so excited thinking of a romantic proposal from him. I wore my best dress, makes me look fatale femme. When I got into the place where we supposedly date, I was stunned looking at him kneeling in front of a girl I never met. Is that the important thing that he wants to tell me? That he is in love with someone and eager want to marry? He take the wind out of sails when he saw me staring straightly to them. But I run into my car. I want to escape, I want to cry. He was following me and get into my car. I didn’t listen to him, I’m badly hurt. I just drove the car as fast as I could. “I HATE YOU!” that’s all I can say  cause it’s nothing to do.

                Then suddenly everything’s blur. I look around, I’m on a white room, laying on a white-sheeted bed. I can’t feel my body, it was fully band-aided. All of a sudden, a beautiful young lady at my age with a long blonde hair get inside my room. She said:

“Jake planned to proposed to you before the accident. He even ask me to help him out about that big event. I was his bestfriend from the South, the one he’s talking about. We’re currently practicing how’s he’s going to tell you ‘will you marry me?’ just right. So I act as you as he kneel down and state those words. Yes! I’m that girl you saw before Jake died”.

                That guy whose in front of me is Jake. He was staring at me with his heartrending eyes. I try to touch him but I can’t feel anything. He’s gone! And that’s because of me. Tears roll down my cheeks uncontrollably.  I’m not scared that I’m alone here on a creepy jungle. Even lightning strikes into my direction. The one thing that I’m scared of is losing hold of Jake, I get shivers down my spine, feel my body turning blue. The feeling is so frightening. It’s driving me insane.

“ I hate…MYSELF!” is all  I can say.